My mother, Pamela Mordecai, is an accomplished, prolific and well-published poet and author. There is an amazing collection of videos of my Mom reading her poetry recorded and hosted online by Memorial University. My father, Martin Mordecai, is also a well-published, though not-so-prolific, writer.
Me, I just have one short, simple poem that I wrote when I was feeling especially desolate. I think it speaks to reality for some of us when we find suicidal thoughts to be a preoccupation, especially a preoccupation we believe we cannot share with those we love.
If you are feeling suicidal, engaging in self-harm, or thinking actively about suicide please let someone in your life know and reach out for help. Thoughts of suicide can be a strange form of comfort sometimes, but preoccupation with suicidal thinking that grows and progresses to investigating plans is a sign that our perceptions of our problems and our suffering are overwhelming us and we are in a crisis. I remember the impact of a website that encouraged me to put just a small amount of the effort I was devoting to thinking about suicide into reaching out for help. Please reach out.